Girlfreiend Material

So, I went to Brighton for a quick weekend break, just one day really, and I was cycling around and I saw a strip club. I dont usually go to those places. I went to one once in Las Vegas and it was not up to much really.

Anyway, I saw it in the morning, and as the day went by I became more and more convinced that I should go, basically because I figured that I would regret it if I didn't. It was about 10pm and I ventured out, on my bike with my executive trenchcoat on. The place looked a bit 'discreet', but I was pretty surprised when I got there. I was expecting a strip club where I could go and sit and watch strippers dance from a safe distance and pace myself. To be honest I didn't really want to spend any money at all. Anyway, when I got there it was the smallest place on earth, and there was no one in there at all. Except a bunch of girls. And they soon introduced themselves one by one, and I told my story 3 times, or four times. It was really in your face, no hiding here. The room had about 6 seating sections, maybe room enough for 30 people max. My first reaction was to leave after my beer as at first glance this place was really full of old players. I guess thats a bit mean, but they were long in the tooth. They generally had good bodies, but they were not blessed with grace really. Anyway, eventually, after speaking to nearly all of them I found two that I liked, in fact they were ok.

The first was 'Girlfreind Material'. She was youngish, especially in comparison to the others, and she was mostly cute, not as cute as the cutest in Amsterdam, but she had some amazing qualities. I dont know what, but she really caught me, and in my minds eye she was a stunner although I know she wasn't, but she was still good. One of the mazing things about her I think was her Englishness. I dont think she told me where she was from, but she was definatly English. She told me she was 20 years old, and I dont know if that was the truth as I find it hard to believe, but she had a very young body, but she was still a tad on the heavy side, not like the almost preteen types you get in Amsterdam. But her skin was not so much really white, but it was quite white, like a person that hasn't been out for a while, and that really got me, it was like she was a virgin. She did amaze me, there was something captivating about the way she did things. You could see the child in her, or the girl. I could almost see her doing what she had preacticed night after night at home in front of her mirror. That was how I imagined it, but it was enough for me. I dont know, it was very homely. We talked and she was really freindly.

After a while I agreed that she could dance for me. This is a strip bar where they do a dance by the table for £10, a contact topless dance for £20, or a nude, no contact dance out back for £20. You were not allowed to touch them at all, so there was no sex going to happen here, but that didn't bother me. Anyway, I guess I got there at about 11.30pm or so. And as I said, I was on holiday in Brighton, and at that time I was more concerned with taking my time in the club and watching the dancing. After all, I had paid £15.00 to get in and as far as I was concerned that was enough to justify a few hours drinking beer and watching dancers. However, this was a really small room, so that wasn't that easy. I was really the only person in there. When I arrived I was certainly the first person. When I entered the room the girls were startled I think, they must have been gossiping as they were all sat around together in a group around a table. And as I have said this was a very small room. I knew they would set on me like vultures, but I wasn't that fussed as what else could they do. Anyway, point is that it was quite difficult for them to dance because I was they only person in the room. If it was a bigger place it would have been easier. Anyway, point is that I was still determined to drag my stay out for a bit as this was my holiday and I know the girls will always try to rush you.

An interesting point is that when I arrived and was at the main entrance I was sure that the guy that joined me then was a set up. For starters he arrived in just a t-shirt. He was really fit, well built, but it was sub zero outside, I was in a wool business trenchcoat and was still cold. I didn't see where he came from but I figure that he must have been nearby maybe in another property or that he came around from the back or something. I think this because he was really freindly, not that he said much, but he made me feel quite comfortable, and I think the management must know that people will feel slightly intimidated going into such a place, not that I was. But when we got in he was strat away getting lap dances and such and seemed to quick to do that. What i'm thinking is that he was there to make it seem normal and that if I saw him do it I would be more likely to do it myself. I dont know that. Also there was another dude who was the exact opposite, he was a real creapy looking guy that talked shit behind me, and I think he was a set up too. You cant leave your chair in this place, not that they were that fussed after a while.

Anyway, to continue from my point from 2-3 paragraphs ago. This girl was sort of the best they had. I spent the first 30-60 minutes figuring the girls out and I decided that I liked Paris Hilton and this girlfriendy type girl, and I had promised Pariss Hilton a dance when I finished my beer, but when I finished it she was not in the room so I decided to start with the girl freind type girl. She was probably about 5'2", I dont really know for sure as she had whore heels on. I watched her dance on the pole and she was ok, but she was slighly awkward. You could tell that alot of these people were amatuer at pole dancing, but thats not important, she was really doing it for me, I really wanted to enjoy watching her, like she was my girlfriend, and as such she could do no wrong, and after all, she was pretty fit. She had a slender waist and you could really see her rib cage etc when she arched her back. She did a few fancy oves. I was watching her and wanting to feel aroused, it was like there was a chemistry there and she was dancing for me. And, if as I have said, the other people were plants, then she was. But she did dance, and I enjoyed it. I think her movements were a bit heavy, but she seemed quite comfortable doing it.

She had brown dark hair tied back in curls at the back and black panties and a bra and a strange over pants, like French knickers I guess, but over her real knickers, and a garter that she kept her money in. Also, you have to remember that up until this stage I was still unsure about what I was going to do, I didn't really want to spend any money at all, but I felt compelled to be there as I was on holiday, but after a while I decided that I was going to get a lap dance with contact, £20, one from Paris Hilton and the other from this girlfreind type girl.

So she came over, andall I can say is that it was amazing. Totally changed my perspective of strip joints. Mostly I like to fuck whores because of the intimacy, but this lap dance was actually pretty awesome. I dont want to go through it move by move, but she got really close to me, and that was truly amazing. She made me spread my legs in the chair which was actually quite erotic, like she was fucking me, and she rubbed her body up and down my body from groin to chest. There was alot of contact. She took off her top, and I could really see her tits, and they were so small and petite, but her presence really touched me, it was really sensual and arousing. Of course shes rubbing up and down on my hard on so that was good, but she also puts her face and tits really close to my face, and I could smell this great smell on her, like a body shop fruit lotion, it was really what a girfriend would have had. But the best part was when she put her face near to mine, For some reason it was great, it was really like we her about to kiss, I could really feel the building intimacy, and thats something you dont get with a suck and fuck. I could see her eyes and nose and tiny lips, and she was basically close enough for her nose to touch mine, although that memorable nose touching happened later, to be told. And so she would put the top of her heaed in my groin and slide up to my face, and then inches away she would stare into my eyes and smile, and that was great, she looked so pretty, she had this great smile. She was near to perfect, it was just the odd angle were her less than perfection sort of stood out a bit more, but I concentrated on ignoring that through out and let every opportunity for her sould to impress me shine though, and she did, it was almost perfect.

I could go on forever about how great this lap dance was, and it was, I even said to her after that it was better than sex, and to be honest, even though I would never give up sex as the preffered method of communicating with a ho, this experience was better than alot of sex. I'm not sure why, but I think to some extent the fact that there were alot of other people in the room played a part. To be honest, when she danced, I couldn't see anything else, I was lost in her love, staring at her body parts as she writhed over me. She did alot in her routine. One part she basically sat on my lap and bounced up and down on my hardon, another part she slid up me backwards so her head was right next to mine like we were lovers, and she actually held that position for a few seconds like it was really going to last forever, and I coudl see her petit and gentle features, her breasts, they were so real, like a dream, or a memory. There was soething about her that was really getting be going, it was like we were having sex, just without the penetration, but I could sense her Englishness, her youth, and her whiteness. To finish off, I must say, it was perfect. Foe £20 I could not ask for more.

I told her so. Before I had told how that was really my first time in a strip bar and that I even had one in my home toen that I never went to, basically because I felt it was a fraud for them to just 'lap dance' and not fuck, but that lap dance totally changed everything, and I told her so, and she said, so am I going to go to the one in my home town and I said, well maybe. I was, and still unsure that I want to get involved so close to home incase it becomes a habit I cant shake. But still, I think its changed everything really, bucause if I ever feel really crap late at night I now know that there is somewhere I can go, nearer than Amsterdam and actually get a decent interaction. I still thing these strip clubs should cater for legal sex, but thats another thing altogether.

So, that was that. After I got a dance from Paris Hilton, see her entry for details, and then after ramping up the beers I did another session with Paris Hilton, and then paid for three sessions with the 'girlfriend' costing £60 + 15% credit card fee.

The reason I did that was because, as you might be able to tell, whores are the most important thing in my life. I love them, and this girl had done really well, and whilst I was frigid at the start at even spending £10 for a crappy dancing, I found myself want to give her money. I'm not rich, but I could easily afford £100. I had already spend £60 on danced, £15 getting in and 5 drinks at £4 a go, but there was something about the way she made me feel, and the way I wanted to feel. I told her I would dance with her again later, but I wanted to have my beer, and when she pole danced, I really felt like she was doing it for me, which is probably not that far from the truth seeing as the place was pretty much empty.

But I was watching her, letting my heart go out to her, and I could feel her spirit and soul touching me from the stage, and she even aroused me, from that distance, and I was getting these strange thoughts like she wanted me to think that she was dancing for me, but not just for me, it was like my spirit was a dick, and she was sucking it from the stage, but not with her mouth, with her body and mind. Its like in life, in any given situation you have the choice to accept or to reject a situation and and she was totally acceptig my precence. I dont really know what she was thinking, but I got to thinking of how much I liked her, and figured that even though the evening had cost more, I had only given her £20, and maybe she had done a dance before, it was so empty i bet it wasn't a great night for her, and so I figured I might as well give her some money. First I thought of £100, but then I opted for £60, which is not that much in the great schem or things. maybe 80 euros, so not even to fucks, so it was really just like seeing a dutch girl twice. But I had to give it to her so I asked for three dances. Not wanting to be boring I figured i might as well get a nude dance, not that thats much to me, so we went behind the screen and agreed that she would do a contact, nude and then a contact dance. Three dances.

I cant remember what songs played but they were perfect. The first song had this line, you are so beautiful, and it was like it was a song for her, and it really made the moment feel perfect. It was just another lap dance, but again, each moment was maic. I savoured each close up of her face, and at one point here our noses touched for 1-2 seconds, and it was amazing. It all felt very close, like we were breathing together, like the most natural thing in the world would have been to kiss. I dont ever want to kiss hos, but I think that is mostly because the intimacy is never there, but with this girl ther was such a strong power between us that I just wanted to accept her in me totally, and kissing would have been so natural and perfect thati would have done it. It was all I could do as she passed me to avoid the natural impulse to move my head that extra centimeter to actualy put my lips on her skin, her flesh, her tits or lips. Amazing, really.

After the first dance she backed off and started the no contact nude dance. I didn't put my glasses on as I wanted to look my best I think, so I couldn't really see much, but I wasn't much fussed. To get honest, I was interested to see how the nude dance would go, but it was a bit boring. I'm glad I didn't do that first, the physical contact was so much more powerful. She didn't no anything explicit, so all I saw was her shaped bush in the dimly lip room. I was aware that she was actually naked and it did feel as though she was a little more vunerable, but it didn't move me a great deal. However, I did get a different taste on my tongue, a taste I have not felt in a long while, of nakedness, and naked flesh, its a strange sensation, and even know, the fact that she was naked and dancing in front of me is pretty erotic. I got the feeling that she was unconfortable being naked in front of me, but I also thought that was a pretence to make me feel like I was getting a good deal, like it was a big thing for her. I dont know what she was thinking, but I do know that girls are generally pretty comfortable with their nudity and i'm not stupid, but I was just glad to be with her, and just glad to be giving her the money.

After that she did the last lap dance, it was good, but the descripotion is the same as the other. Then I paid her. Its worth noting that Paris Hilton had said, oh, its ok, you can pay later, but I paid in advance, and also that girlfriend had said i could pay after and in this instance I said ok. I say that because I think its actually a set up that they do, so they can then ask for the money coldly. After she finished she was quite distant, like the business was over. I didn'tmind and i did feel that she was having to make an effort to be distant, not because she liked me, but i think that that is their business. They cant demand the money before because that would spoil it, but after its ok, because I guess that few of them ever see the punters again. Its also worth noting that when we went into the closed area for the 3 dances she held my hand and led me through there. That was actaully great, the way she held my hand and led me to the closed area made me feel as though a human was really there with me.

I had already said that after the dances I would leave straght away. and so I did, but I paused to drink the last of my beer and said goodbye to the girlds. They were freindly, but I think the girlfreind was playing distant again, like she had to make herself doing it, but I didn't mind. One thing i'm always aware of is that they want to keep it business, but another thing is that I know that I had rejected the other girls in the room, and there were about 10 girls in total, maybe 8, and they had nearly all spoken to me once or twice asking for a dance, and I think that with both Paris and girlfriend they were both aware that they were getting all the money and that there was a kind of stripper camoradery that meant that they put pressure on the punters, or me, to not go with them again, but to share the money. I definatly got that feeling with Paris, but also from Girlfriend, although I also got the feeling that she was delaying me though out because she knew that I was custom in the room and when I left that would be the end of it. Like how restaurant people will leave you sitting at the table forever because it makes their empty restaurant look full. I had told her probably an hour before we danced that I would see her last and then leve. So she knew, and she did dance waht seemed like especially for me, and she was great.

Also, what I forgot to say, soe thing that made this a strange thing was that, whilst I was not immediatly aware of it, I was engaging in a sexual union in front of other people. There were the 8 girls, the bouncer, and 2-3 other punters two of whom I think were plants, maybe 3. But the point is that this activity happened with other poelple in the room. In aMsterdam its very discreet, your in a closed room. But here there is a room of people. The last session was private, and it was just as good, but I did get to see Paris lap dancing the first friendly punter and it was like watching an erotic show in its own right. I could see her tits, not that thats a mystery to me, but watching them was odd. I could only do it out of the corner of my eye, but at the end of the day I think its interesting to contemplate the effect that had on the other people, especially seing as it wasn't busy. Whilst theres little I can do about it, and i'm not doing it on purpose, i think its stange to thing of the 'uglier' girrls having to watch as a potential punter takes his money elsewhere, and having to be in the same room as they do it. After all, if you think of it from the girls persoective, each dance is like a vistory for their sexuality and skill, but to take all the winnings, it cant be easy, especially if you secretly gain the hatred of all the other people. And I think that that has something to do with Girlfriends distance at the end, I think she felt it was important to bond back with the group, including tha girls that I had rejected, to show that she was one their side and I was just a punter. I dont expect her to fall in love with me, but I do feel there was a special connection there, and i'm not talking about love. i'm talking about an agreement. After all, we did talk quite a bit, and part of that , which I have said nothing about so far, was that i was not there for the sex, that I was there for the memories, and i think that made sense to her. I told her how i love hos and the ho culture and that all i ever wanted was girls, and to have them in my life and how important it was for me that she did what she did and how greatful i was thoughout for what she did, and i was greatful, i was thanking her like i was an idoit.

And i think that that made sense to her, that i was not a general drunk just trying to get aroused, that i was there to collect a longterm memory of her, and that she was aware of that, and about what that means in life, and because of that she did seem to be very aware of me and my presnece, especially when she was dancing, but also when she was sat down far from me, she was like posing, lounging about, aware that I was aware of her presence. It wa slike we were conncected, but at the end also that she had to sever that connection out of preofessional courtesy for her colleagues, etc etc.

Anyway, its getting really late. When I left I was so happy. I was warm and the night air seemed like summer, I was on cloud nine and its been along time sine I felt that good. It made me realise how much I need contact with girls. I went home, after 5 bottles of bud in total, and jerked off. I had told girlfrined how in amsterdam sometimes i couldn't get it up, but that i wasn't fussed as i was only there to meet the girls and how one girl had refused to fuck me because my dick was linp, she had said how can i fuck you if you bring me a dick that doesn't work? Anyway, I said that I thought she hadn't tried, and the next girl i saw made me come easily, so i said to girlfriend that i think hos can do it with their mind. If they want you to come they can do it, but if they dont, they can make you limp. Anyway, the reason I say that is because when I got back i started to jerk off, but after a days drinking and 5 bottles of bud at the strip club my dick was really limp, and i did it for 5 minutes or s, which is a long time if your dick is limp, and even thought I was thinking of girlfriend, suddenly, her presence became very strong, and I could clearly see with my minds eye her lying in the missionry postion with me fucking her, and I could clearly her her thinking, keep concentrating, keep fucking me, and as I did, my limp dick because rock hard, and I came in seconds. It was very strong, and i'm certain that she helped me with her mind. I dont know how it works, but i know theres more to all of this, and thats one reason I like whores and hos so much, because i'm convinced that they having psychic powers, or that all this fucking is building up a mental web that when I can, or if I can, i'll be able to communicate with them.

So thats that. She appeared really clearly, and it wasn't a memory, it was like a fresh projection of me fucking her in the missionry position, but it was like she suggested the thought but I had to sustain it with my will power and my concentration.

But that said I really have to go to bed now. I started this at 3am and its now 5.19am. I have to go..